Finding Myself

  A year ago today I was having a really bad day.  I know this because my memories on Facebook popped up to remind me.  Thanks facebook.  But no, seriously I'm glad they did.  Although life isn't exactly where we want it right now, it's not bad either.   And it reminded me that things are only temporary, and bad days will pass and you will have more good ones.  Life goes on.  But i wanna tell you a little bit about a year ago today.   December 1st 2017 was one of the SCARIEST days of my life.  My cousin Sydney and I were sitting in my sun room doing our hair and make-up,  chatting it up, when my dogs came up to the door (they were outside going potty) and Sydney noticed kujo was shaking really bad, so I went to check on Karma and she was way worse.  She couldn't even stand up! She kept twitching and falling down like she was having a seizure, couldn't keep her eyes open.  Kujo was bad too, but karma was way worse....

Dear Jared, Happy birthday handsome! You're 22.  I can't express how blessed I am to have spent 6 birthdays with you (including this one) , and so many more to come.   I just want to let you know that i am incredibly proud of the man you've always been, and the even better man you've grown to be.  I am so proud of you for everything you've accomplished,  and I am SO thankful for every thing you do for us.  You work your butt off so that we can have the things that we have, pay our bills, and enjoy life.  I know sometimes I may take that for granted, and I'm sorry i know i don't say thank you enough.  I love you more than words can express, and I am SO blessed to be your wife. You are the most amazing, handsome, kind man I have ever met.  You can make anyone smile, and you always brighten up rooms with yours.  You are strong, hard-working, and humble.  You are funny, and sweet.  I couldn't have asked for a better man to spend...

  Sometimes it doesn't feel like it's been 5 years.  15 doesn't seem that far off.   But that's how life is.... time passes us by,  things change, and life goes on.  15 was a crazy year, huh? There Was bad,  and there was good.   I can still remember that year like it was yesterday.  I'm sure I'll never forget it, as that year was a very impactful year for me.  I turned 15 on January 28th 2013.  The beginning of that year was pretty normal for me.  I was a freshman at Eastern High School, Skinny,  Pretty,  Carefree, Lots of friends,  but tender hearted and naive.   I went to parties frequently (that my parents had no idea about) and I was pretty much your typical average teenage  girl.  Until my best friend since middle school betrayed me and all of my secrets.  I was embarrassed, I was alone, and suicidal.   I ended up enrolling in Ecot for homeschooling because I was j...

  Dear Megan,   I'm writing you to reflect on our life.  Together.  I mean we are the same person, but I'm sure 30 year old me differs from the 20 year old me that is writing this at this very moment.  It's crazy huh? How time flies.... how life changes in just the blink of an eye.   I want to start this out by saying, whoever you are now... I AM PROUD OF YOU!  I'm sure the past 10 years have been full of ups and downs, but you made it through! We made it through.  I'm sure whatever you have made of your self, of your life... is wonderful.   But either way, I want to let you know my hopes and dreams for you at 30 years old.  Here it goes:     I hope you are living life to the fullest, and living in the moment making memories with those you love the most.  I hope you are still happily married, and keeping things spicey and fun.  I hope you finally got to become a mom.  I know thats one of our  bi...

  August of 2013.  Thats where our love story begins.  It was the beginning of sophomore year at a new school.   I was nervous, yet excited for a fresh start.  New friends, cute boys, teachers that didn't know me as the girl who always got in trouble.    Really it was like a whole new "era" for me.   I never expected to fall in love, but life is full of the unexpected.    First day of school, 2nd period. Ms. Liddles classroom.  That's English, by the way.  That is when i first saw him.  He was in the first row of the classroom, 4th chair back.   Handsome, muscular, stalky build.  He had this appearance about him that just had "bad boy" written all over him.  ( Little did i know he was the sweetest man i have ever met.)  He looked much older than what he was, probably because of his facial hair which i found extremely attractive.  But from the moment I first saw him, I KNEW he w...

  2019.  A year of change.   A year of growth.  A year for resolutions.  I dont mean the kind of resolutions you make on new years with no real intention of actually following through.  I want to see a change in myself this next year, in so many ways.   I've been contemplating blogging for quite some time now.  I've always shook away the thought, because putting myself and my feelings out there is just uncomfortable.  It's way outside of my comfort zone.  Maybe thats just the thing I need. Bare with me.  But here is my "Bucket List" for the year of 2019. 1.) Start College! (And work my butt of with the attitude that I can and will complete my courses with a passing grade). 2.) Turn 21 & have a really fun night out! 3.) Work on my health & my weight!  Eat healthy, and exercise.  I would love to lose quite a bit of weight.  This will boost my confidence, but will also help my over All ...