It can be hard. Really really hard. Most days are fine. You can cope with your childless void, and exist in every day life with a smile and truly be happy for your friends and family with children. With pregnancy announcements and baby showers. Most days I'm happy for them. Excited with them even. BUT then there are the days I miss my period. I'll go months being completely regular and then out of no where I miss. For no reason. I wait a week after i miss my period to take a pregnancy test, just to be safe to make sure af doesn't show her ugly stupid face. I imagine myself telling jared we are pregnant, us telling our parents, doing a gender reveal, having a baby shower, ultrasounds, heck I even picture myself with a big ole pregnant belly. But the catch? Test is always negative. I'm never pregnant, even when i miss. Never. It's just a sick game my body plays with my head that ends with me being dissappinted, upset, and angry every time it happ
Home Health Aide/ HHA, Personal Care Aide/ PCA. That's what i am. That's what i do. It's a job that I continue to find my way back to. Being a home health care provider is not an easy job, but it's a rewarding one. Don't get me wrong, you'll have easy clients. The ones that just want to sit and chat, or watch movies, or bake, or make crafts, or play cards, etc. And the memories you make are amazing. Your client becomes apart of your family, and you apart of there's. They make your time at work incredibly enjoyable and you are so so very thankful for your job. And for them. These clients are so appreciative of you, and everything you do. They treat you with respect and love. And you just enjoy working for them, and they enjoy your company. You'll also have some difficult clients. The ones who feel their way is the only way and they will ride a stick up your behind until you do it exactly how they want it done ( no, not literall