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A year ago today

  A year ago today I was having a really bad day.  I know this because my memories on Facebook popped up to remind me.  Thanks facebook.  But no, seriously I'm glad they did.  Although life isn't exactly where we want it right now, it's not bad either.   And it reminded me that things are only temporary, and bad days will pass and you will have more good ones.  Life goes on.  But i wanna tell you a little bit about a year ago today.

  December 1st 2017 was one of the SCARIEST days of my life.  My cousin Sydney and I were sitting in my sun room doing our hair and make-up,  chatting it up, when my dogs came up to the door (they were outside going potty) and Sydney noticed kujo was shaking really bad, so I went to check on Karma and she was way worse.  She couldn't even stand up! She kept twitching and falling down like she was having a seizure, couldn't keep her eyes open.  Kujo was bad too, but karma was way worse.  Jared pulled in, and we RUSHED them to mount orab  vets office.  Luckily I use to volunteer there and they took them because they were closing down for the night.   They put them on IVS for the night, and we went home.  Scared to death that they were going to die, and we would have to go on without them. The thought brought me to tears.  We were so worried,  and so we prayed.

  That same night after we get home I got a text from my boss to listen to my voicemail.   The voicemail was telling me that I was being terminated.  Thats it.  No explanation, nothing.   So very unprofessional.  I called to ask her why,  and she gave me a bunch of "BS" reasons of to why i wasn't a good fit.  None of which were true, except one.  I didn't connect with the other girls.  The other girls who spent nap time gossiping about the other teachers.   No I didn't connect with them, I don't enjoy putting other people down.  I was really upset that night and honestly, down right angry.  

  The next day we went to pick up our puppies.   They were doing better.  Very sleepy but not ill.  Thank God.  (The reason they were sick is because they were poisoned)

   Today they are two happy and healthy pups.  ❤
And i have a job interview on Monday; not sure how it will go, but hopefully well.  I'm enrolled in college to become a nurse, we are buying our own house.  Life is good. 

  So next time you are having a day to where the world feels like it might end.  You are ready to shut down,  and just give up.  You can't handle another second! Please don't do anything drastic.   Will it matter In a year? Could things change a million times for the better? You won't know if you don't give yourself a chance.

Xoxo, megs.

 
 

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